Cyn Kohls
Well, it is Saturday, the diet has not gone will this week - I'll start again tomorrow :).

It has been a week of ups and downs.  I love being with my son, he does not seem to mind that I am not doing anything other than watching and listening.  Good thing he is at that stage where he says, "watch this", "hey, did you see that?"  whew, it can get to be too much - but it is something I can do.  Really, I only do not enjoy watching his video playing - which he seems to think is amazing :).  He is diving and playing basketball, as well as piano (which he does not want to do), and I enjoy watching those things.  He does dance around and sing to his music with headphones on and I find that fun to watch.  I do not get asked to watch that however, then and he will stop and give me "heck" for spying him.  I find that fun too. It helps that he is into Eminem and Pitbull right now - I like that music also.

It is Sunday, a day of church and Christmas activities, I will worry about the diet tomorrow - start the week on Monday.

The "ups and downs" are my husband and I - it has been tough on him since Jan. 6th also.  If you have been reading you know that physically my life has gone downhill. However hard that is for both of us it is harder changing or giving up a plan (dream).  We both saw such improvements that we honestly thought I would be walking (at least with a cane)...  Now I have to start over again and we have to reassess the plan...  it is such a long haul and hard work...  I guess I really have nothing better planned so I might as well get busy :).
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Wednesday

Morning: Iced green tea, avocado with garlic, olives, onion, peppers.  It is already afternoon and still no "green" drink.

Afternoon, nothing
 Dinner, turkey pot pie - for me minus the pie

after dinner - the day went to hell, on all accounts.
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Tuesday - My first day back at eating the way I know I should for my health!

breakfast - already I do not want to eat anything - or drink anything I should say - but I will.
     Well, I had good intentions - I just could not bring myself into the kitchen for breakfast.  I found
     other things to do - so no breakfast for me, just iced green tea.
lunch - alright, I made it into the kitchen and managed to have my breakfast for lunch!  I made green
     juice with carrot, chia seeds, turmeric, kelp, spirulina, and flax oil.   This is my regular breakfast
     drink, a good way to have some of the greens I need daily.  I usually have kale, romaine, beet and
     beet greens, celery, lemon, ginger... anything and everything that I would put in a salad.

For some reason this drink gave me an upset stomach and made me pee a lot!  Probably because I have not been eating well.  So I had a snack before dinner

snack - home made turkey soup with tomato, onion, celery, and carrot.  Bone broth cures almost anything :).  I did cheat with 6 saltines :(,  they did help settle my stomach however, they are grains and eating grains is not what I want to be doing!!

OK, dinner was spaghetti with meat sauce.  The sauce was good, and I could eat that not the noodles, no grains.  I had a little, not hungry...  Then after everyone was down for the night I was hungry and had peanut butter...

So, a half and half day.  Oh, I have every hope to do better tomorrow :)





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nothing new going on here.  feeling the same, moving the same, and appreciating the "norm" as much as possible.
I have realized that the diet I was eating faithfully was helping me.  It is the only reason I can think of for my feet not freezing.  I think my feet, my circulation, my flexibility, my energy and overall health was better.  Much better!  I am still having a hard time getting back to it 100%.  I have found "True", a bottled green juice that is really good and will make my mornings easier - so no reason to not drink some greens with added seaweed, chia seeds, hemp oil, and turmeric.  Then all I have to do is make the salad I need to be eating for lunch.  Dinner is always being made, eryone is here expecting to eat - so that is easy.  I just have to do it!  Push through the laziness of doing nothing, eating nothing, being nothing.  OK, that is that... moving on.

So,  I get around by segway everywhere except in the house.  In the house I use my walker, both as a walker and a chair.  Sometimes I just sit and push myself where I want to go.
That being said, I do not like to go to other peoples homes.  I have to have both my segway and walker.  Even if I just use my walker, I have to get it out of my car - no longer easy for me.
Knowing that about me I assume people realize that chances of me making it to their house for a party is pretty slim, especially if my husband is not coming along.  Now if the house a an extremely steep driveway and a series of steps without a railing...SLIM TO NONE, is the chance I am going.  So why the attitude about me not being there?  I really do not get it.  I should be the one with the attitude, I am the one NOT there.

I have learned over the years that I have to speak up and stand up for myself, especially with the medical field.  In my personal life it is harder.  I want to be apart of the extended family fun, so I go to events, places, and outings that I know will be challenging for me.  Sometimes I have to just say NO. I look forward to the day where I am asked but understood when I say no...
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Today was a tough day, emotionally.  I do not understand why or how some people in my life assume that I can go places or do things that I can not get to or around in and then get to be mad at me for not being there.  Worse than being mad at me is being mad at my husband for it.  I think it is weird and confusing.  I should be the one that is mad, I am the one who is missing out because I have mobility challenges.  My husband should be mad, he has given up a lot also.Why would they think that I am "snubbing" them?
This summer I went to a local lake here to get on the ski boat and be with everyone.  Well, it really did not sound fun to me because I knew that it would be uncomfortable, bouncing around, that I might have to go to the bathroom and I would be stuck out on the water,  that I could not eat or drink for the same reason, that I would be in the way since people would have to move around me and I would not be able to get out of their way, and a little dread on what might happen if I ended up in the water... But, I want to be with the family so I go...  I ride my segway out on the dock and my husband along with some nephews attempt to help me in the boat. Well, the dock is moving the boat is moving and I am not.  My husband offers to carry me on the boat...Seriously?  lift me up and walk onto a moving uneven surface with a great chance of falling into the water?  Then I start thinking how am I going to get off if I do get on?  And of course all the other issues I have been thinking about... So, I do not go.  I wait in the parking lot for my husband and son to be out there with the family.
So, I attempted to be there, on the boat, I was there...
So, be understanding and do not use my not being somewhere to talk about me not wanting to be apart of the fun, I used to be the fun :), I like fun...

Ok, so this is a week later, once again I am put in the situation where the family is doing "family" activities that will take 5 hours - home for 1/2 hour then out again for 2 hours.  When am I supposed to eat and drink??  If I actually drink anything how and where am I going to go to the bathroom? So, I think I should do just one activity... makes sense to me.  It is Christmas and I do not want to miss anything with my son - so I wont eat or drink today - I am sure I will make up for it tonight and tomorrow!  So, I will do both activities - I am not going to miss the fun.
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Thanksgiving was wonderful.   I am so glad we put the turkey in a brine for 15 hours.  That is the way to go!  We cooked a 20 lb turkey and every bit of it was juicy.  I have always had good luck with turkey and chicken, they both cook easy - but this was the best by far.  The rest of the meal was good also.  I have been eating the 7 layer salad everyday since and it just gets better!  As a matter of fact I am going to finish it off right after this!  I did make a gravy - not grain free, I used a teaspoon of gluten free-no GMO organic flour.  Of course I had lumps, even though I used a mason jar and shook up the flour with some hot water.  So I put the whole thing in the blender, it worked and the gravy was fabulous also.  My son was not feeling up to eating much - since he had food poisoning the day before (probably from sushi).  Today he woke up and said "I can't wait to have turkey dinner tonight!"  So, dinner is planned and pretty much ready.  I love that!  This year was different around here because my husband played a much bigger role in the kitchen.  I can no longer lift a turkey, especially a 20 lb turkey, so he had to do all the "heavy" work.  It was so nice and fun having him in the middle of things.  There was a lot of repeating myself but mostly laughter.  We missed the family around.  I hope the next holiday is different in that there is some family or friends eating with us or just being with us.  Our daughter will be here in January, so Christmas wont be as much fun without her again... Guess we will have to make a celebration in January too.  No sense in not!

The pies were a disaster!  They were the catalyst for much of the laughter.  Turns out I am no baker! Even the dog would not eat the pies and he loves pecan.. The whipped cream, from scratch, was a big hit and I had fruit on standby so all was well there too.  I wonder if it was the swap of honey for corn syrup?? There has to be a replacement for corn syrup, maybe agave nectar?   Any advice on that would be appreciated.  My mom and Aunts are such good bakers...where did I go wrong :).

Who needs pies anyway.  I will be boiling the turkey bones today, with the heart, gizzard, liver, neck, whatever else was in those bags.  I will be making tomato & turkey soup tomorrow and then I will make turkey pot pies - they always work out for me... It really is just the dessert thing.  I love having enough left overs to re-purpose the meal into other things.  Who doesn't love soup and pot pie?

Everyone will eat the "organ" meats when they are "hidden" in soup or pot pies.  Try it, everyone needs to eat organ meat - they just do not want to know they are eating it.  I find it makes things "richer" and sometimes "creamier"  The only hard part for me is "forgetting" that they are in there and eat them.  I really do not like the idea, the taste is fine, good actually.  I just was not raised having to eat them.  My parents eat liver and onions, enjoy them even.  My mom tells me that she used to make us beef tongue and we loved it - until we discovered what it was and then she stopped.  She said it was not worth the complaining, crying, and gagging.  Turns out we needed that in our diets... As parents we pick our battles, I use the technique of not telling and/or not admitting... works for me

OK, I have to go - can not get that salad out of my mind and now my stomach is growling :)

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The pecans were raw and I soaked them overnight. Then I put them on parchment paper and sprinkled a little pink Himalayan salt and baked, 350 for 20 min.  All nuts bake different - so check and move them around.  WOW they are good.  Nuts are dormant and when they reach your stomach they release tannins, oh wait - here is why you should soak;

Nutritional inhibitors and toxic substances found in nuts grains and seed can be minimized or eliminated by soaking. These inhibitors and toxic substances are enzyme inhibitors, phytates (phytic acid), polyphenols (tannins), and goitrogens.  By: Delicia Beaty and Sharon Foutch



so, there you have it - besides you and everyone else will like them better and if you are eating them for the health benefits you might as well get them, the benefits I mean.
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